IDK My BFF.... _________?

So woke up pretty early today. Round 930. I started watching TV for a while. I was watching The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and I was actually satisfied with it. I thought it was going to be really gay but it was pretty good. I am probably going to see the 2nd one now haha. But seeing that movie made me realized that I havent had a "girl bestfriend" since like middle of 8th grade. Like Bryden and I were best friends from like 6th grade to middle of 8th and I know that doesnt sound like much when I say it like that but we saw eachother like everyday. We wrote notes to eachother throughout 7th grade and did everything together. We clicked automatically in 6th grade. We lived close too so I would go to her house, she would go to mine, all that stuff. But middle of 8th we started drifting and hanging out with different people. Things started getting weird between us and stuff. I took it as it was nothing but I think it really effected me in some way. Like John came over like everyday in 8th grade because he moved so I got reeeeeally close with him as I was drifting from Bryden. Now me and him have been best friends for quite a while now. He is my current best friend because hes always been there for me and all of that. I am perfectly fine with him being my best friend, I tell him a lot but I cant tell him everything, and talk about boys and all that shit. I have problems with the girls in Napa. They all judge me about the stupidest shit and all Napa girls talk shit and all that which makes it even harder because Im the "Weird-New-Girl-From-LA" or "The Slut!" haha. So I hangout with mostly all boys....I think thats slightly because of being bestfriends with John...but its also that boys are easier to get along with. They talk shit, but not that kind of shit like all the girls. I like going to LA because not only is it a getaway from my parents and this whole scene its a time when I can go to my girls. Tayne for instance is a girl Im mostly always with when Im in LA. We dont talk about everything but its nice to talk to a girl for a change. And I visited Bryden when I was there recently and to have our boy talks, and our "remember when" talks, and doing all the stuff we used to do its so nice. Like if someone saw what we did, it wouldnt seem like much but to me, its something I really love to do. I miss having that dominant girl to go to. Like....my sister isnt even living with us anymore so its really just me and a whole bunch of guys when im not in LA. That is pretty much what I have been thinking about this whole day because idk its weird for me I guess. And I dont like how im not even trying to talk to the girls up here as a reeeeeeeally close girl friend but its probably because of all the shit Ive heard and stuff. It makes me feel like not even approaching it. Hmm....well yeah. Thats just something I need to do with no offense to John or my love for theeeee males hahaha. Well on another subject, was hoping to chill with Filipe today but he has work so cant do that....maybe ill see him after but IDK. Been so lazy lately. Waking up in the late afternoon, breakfast on the couch in my PJs watching tv all day. Gotta start doing stuff more. Well yeah so this post is pretty much for all the main girls in maaaaaaah life! Love you girls. And for John for being the bestest best friend ever! Love you! Peace yooooo

post for Bryden Jenkins, Tayne Yoon, John Cruz, and all my other girls!




love you B!


forever!


Tayne! good friends fo'eva!


my favorite giiiiiiiirls! love em.