Hopes Up

Ugh I ALWAYS get my hopes up and then BAM gets crushed. Was supposed to go to LA March 20th like everything was set and today my dad was like "you dont need to go. you are forcing it when you know you dont wanna go" blah blah and then i check ticket prices anyway and they went up like 30 bucks each way so screw that I dont even wanna go anymore! :[ Now I have to wait till summer...or at least May for a few days but I think Quique wants to go that time. But ugh, spring break is going to be so fckin boring. I want John to come up again but Im losing contact with him again. Hate what moving does to stuff like that "/. Well on a good note, besides the rain, things have been pretty good. My main friends right now are Quique and Max. Friggen love those boys!!!! Not even trippin. Now what to do with that hundred bucks :] Phone.....or clothes.....or shoes. IDK!!!!! So this week I need faaaat motivation to go find a job I been lagging hella when I need a car and money more than anything! well h0lla!